Burn-out syndrome
Twice in my life I have experienced a burn-out syndrome. What is a burn-out? The word speaks for itself, it means: burned out. Burned out, the fuel is used up, the battery has run down.
And, what now to do? Get charged up again, recharge the battery, and go on again? Is that the solution? I did that with the first burn-out. The results were, that a few years later I found myself in a second burn-out. After the first time I crashed I wanted to be as quickly as possible on my feet again, and to work and to participate again in the society. But that didn't work, I crashed again. So I had to do something else,
The second time when I reached the bottom, and when I found myself again as a run down battery ~this is how it feels~ I choosed another path as the first time. At the first time I choosed the regular path, the regular psychological medicine, like psychologists, psychiatrists, etc. I even was admitted into a psychiatric hospital, because of heavily depressions at that time.
At the second burn-out I choosed another path. Earlier I choosed the regular path. At that time I took a time of rest, but I did not learn anything. Because now, I found myself at the second time in this situation, and is was more serious as the first time, because the second time I couldn't do anything anymore, as only sleeping and crying. Again I found myself at the bottom.
It
took
months,
before
I
could
take
a
start
with
accepting
the
situation,
that
I
for
the
moment
it
was
better
for
me
not
to
think
about
work,
that
it
was
better
for
me
to
let
it
go.
And
to
make
a
start
to
figure
out
who
I
really
was
and
what
I
wanted
to
do
with
my
life.
I
had
to
stop
with
wanting
that
people
should
think
about
me
as
a
nice,
kind
and
loving
person,
and
always
to
pleasure
someone
else.
I
had
to
love
myself,
and
to
think
about
myself
as
a
nice,
kind
and
loving
person,
and
to
pleasure
myself.
That
burn-out
created
a
situation,
that
I'll
had
to
face
this.
I
was
so
tired.
I
couldn't
go
on
anymore.
I
could
not
participate
anymore
in
society.
I
could
not
do
normal
things
as
my
work,
contacs
with
other
people,
parties,
all
kind
of
earthly
things
that
you
usually
do
as
human
being,
I
could
not
do
anymore.
This
intense
tiredness
that
you
can
feel
inside
when
you
are
experiencing
a
burn-out,
is
not
describable.
Every
cell
in
your
body
feels
not
only
tired,
but
worn
out.
You
can
sleep
whole
day
long.
But
later
I
will
give
you
a
list
of
the
symptoms
of
a
burn-out.
The advantage of this situation is, that finally now you can make a start to concentrate on yourself. You can't do anymore all kind of earthly things, you did before and that took your time. What you can do is lay down and close your eyes, and make a start with a travel inside, by feeling what is there inside of you. Wat do I meet. What do I want. Who am I. Other people have an opinion about me, or about what is good for me, but what do I really want for myself ?
If you are in the
centre of this process it seems as if the sun won't shine for you anymore. I
felt as if I was a failure. But when I look back, I have discovered sides of
myself, that I otherwise never should have seen, and this website is an example.
I
tried to heal myself with the alternative treatments, such as I have discribed
some of them in the chapter healing
yourself.
Everything is in service of your personal growth. Even ( or
just!
)
that
that
seems
to
be
negative.
Also
that
is
in
service
of
the
positive.
It
took
a
long
time,
before
I
could
see,
that
it
is
an
advantage
to
be
at
the
bottom:
there
is
just
one
way
to
go,
and
that
is
upwards!
© Anneke
to
be
continued........
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